
We said goodbye to our sweet, crazy & loyal Bailey this afternoon, making for a very empty and sad house tonight.
As most people know, Bailey had her first seizure in January & even though the vet promised the worst, we were hopeful when she didn't have another one for six months. Unfortunately, throughout June & July the seizures increased to where she was having one a week - and those are the ones that we know of. Sadly, she could have been having more when we weren't home.
Two nights ago she had the worst one yet and came very close to injuring herself during the episode. If I hadn't been there to move furniture out of her way it would have been terrible. Grant and I were forced to make the horrible decision to put her down & we have been devastated since. We knew she was only going to get worse and we knew it wasn't fair to hang on.
So, this morning the kids and I took her for our biggest walk ever & went swimming with her at the beach. We took a million pictures (that's the one thing I could do), and loved her the longest and best we could.
Of course we loved her, even in spite of her diaper-eating-toilet-water-drinking-face-licking ways. She was with Grant & I before we had kids, she was our fierce protector while Grant was away, and she was a constant tail-thumping presence in our lives for the past 7 years.
Grant had the hardest job of all & he took her in and was with her until the end. Now we are left with a quiet house, an empty blanket at the end of our bed, a lot of dog hair and even more heartbreaking questions from the kids. It's a hard, hard thing to keep it together around them. No one prepares you to parent when you yourself want nothing more than to give up and be taken care of.